fillers or aus i would love to play running list; if you're interested in any of this, throw up a starter and i am there
steve + peggy
Peggy and Steve's reunion when he returns to the past.
That dance scene. /sobs
Anything about their life afterward.
steve + tony
Conversations about Peggy or Howard, or anything else they'd talk about during their 2-man mission to the past
First time Steve and Tony interact after Tony calls Steve out on how failing together sucks.
Did Steve and Tony ever talk during those 5 years? If so, what did that look like?
[au] Tony survives, but Steve doesn't know that when he goes back in time. So now Steve is really old and Tony is not.
[au] Tony survives and Steve comes back from returning the stones and they rebuild their relationship
steve + natasha
Awful life at Avengers compound before Ant-Man, basically lots of hurt/comfort with each other
[au] When Steve tells Natasha that maybe they should both move on, he asks her out on a date — it becomes a very sad attempt at moving on, but it's also a sad kind of solace.
steve + bucky
Honestly, they barely got any time back together. Steve and Buck MUST have talked before Steve just decided to go back in the past. Possible convo where he admits he's not coming back, and asking Bucky if he wants to return back to their time with him?
steve + anyone
So ... you can so Mjolnir now?
Conversations with various characters when he returns the stones to their rightful place in the past
Someone insisting on going back in time with Steve, and they return all the stones together and this person convinces Steve to come back (or, is convinced that he really doesn't want to)
shuri + anyone
Rebuilding the world from Wakanda
Meeting the other avengers
One-uping our science bros during reconstruction :D
tony stark (AI) + morgan/anyone
I imagine this will be mostly sass.
And with everyone who is not Morgan, this will basically be him joking about how he's going to live forever.
[ Steve just smiles. He could probably also smile at Tony all day. ]
I'm comfortable too. [ He likes the way Tony put that. It feels like it describes more than where just his body is. His heart feels comfortable too, here, with Tony, and Steve feels it too — how it's falling hard and fast right now. ] I love that we can talk about all this. And. I didn't say this earlier, but, I feel lucky to be with you too.
[ He smiles and kisses his cheek before settling his head back on the pillow. Close enough that they’re still pretty damn close, but with enough distance that he can see him. ]
...I really like having you here, you know. Maybe - if you want - you can...stop by again, even when we don’t go for hikes?
[ His smile grows, both relieved and happy that he hadn’t said something that would drive him away because he’s moving too fast. But, well. Considering how close they all came to not having anymore time, and the fact that it feels like they’re making up for what was lost or never discovered soon enough, he can’t help it. He’d love it if Steve could be here for much longer than just one more night. ]
I think you’ll come to find out I won’t be kicking you out anytime soon. If it was up to me, you’d stay for as long as you want to.
[ Any trepidation on Steve's end comes from the same place. He's falling hard, faster than he's ever fallen even if he's known Tony for more than a decade, and he doesn't want to scare Tony away. Normally, Steve moves so slow this isn't even a problem, but this time, everything feels different. ]
Are you ... saying what I think you're saying? [ There's a curious smile on Steve's face as he asks. ]
[ He gives Steve’s hand a squeeze as his smile widens. ]
If it’s something you’re comfortable with, yes. I don’t want you to feel like you have to, but if you’d like to stay here... you’re welcome to. And I obviously have extra rooms if you ever want your own space.
[ Steve looks up toward the ceiling for a moment, with a whimsical look in his eye. ] I think I'd like a room. If only so that I could invite you in sometimes.
But— Yeah. I'll need to go back to my apartment at least once to get some things. After that ... [ Steve grins, almost like he isn't sure what he's saying could actually be real. ] I'm all yours.
[ This was definitely a lot easier than Tony expected. After years of avoiding relationships, this may all be too fast. But...it feels right. And that’s what he’s running with, even if he feels his heart speeding up. It’s in the best way possible, though. ]
You can pick whichever one you want. And this doesn’t have to happen now, it can be whenever. There... Some days, especially after therapy I may be a bit much, so you’re welcome to get some space away, I won’t get offended. [ If anything, that makes him feel guilty that he’ll be subjecting Steve to all that.
He gives his cheek a kiss. ] But I promise, generally I’m not that bad of a housemate.
[ They'll have to find out exactly how often Steve actually uses his own room later, or if most of his nights will be spent in Tony's bed instead. Either way, Steve is excited to not only see more of Tony, but to essentially be able to see him all the time. ]
That sounds good. Maybe I'll pick one out when I get back. Say, on Tuesday. [ That comment about therapy though— ] A bit much huh? I'd actually like to come to therapy with you sometime if you're okay with it. Not tomorrow, but, maybe a couple of weeks from now.
[ Steve grins at the kiss. ] I'm sure you'll be great. As for me — well, you remember from the Tower. I have it pretty under control, but sometimes when I'm in a totally new place and get ... distracted, I accidentally end up breaking something. [ When Steve first started living in the Tower, he's pretty sure he broke the microwave. Aaaand also maybe Natasha's door handle, which hadn't been identical to his. In retrospect, Tony may have taken this all into account on Steve's floor in particular. ]
[ It probably shouldn’t surprise him, considering how supportive Steve has been about everything he has said so far, but for some reason it does. Other than Pepper, Tony has never really dealt with recuperation and doctor visits while dating someone, and his first instinct is to not have Steve deal with him because he already feels like it’s too much. Which, well, maybe he shouldn’t have invited him to stay with him considering the situation with his arm isn’t exactly resolving itself tomorrow. ]
Yeah, I mean. If you really want to. It’s an all day thing; I still have a couple of weeks to go before I’m done with the cradle thing Helen developed, and then it’s physical therapy so it might get boring.
[ He grins, his expression fond at the memories. ] Oh I remember. It’s okay, the only thing I’m fond of around here is you. And my bots. Beyond that, you can break whatever you want.
[ Especially while they’re having sex. As Steve will come to find out. ]
What happens when you're doing regeneration with Helen? [ He figures, at least, that that's what's going on here. That's what the cradle is for, after all. ] Do you lay in the cradle the whole time? Because in that case, physical therapy is a lot much more interesting.
[ He chuckles when Tony gives him permission to break whatever he wants. ] Understood. Don't break any bots. That should be pretty easy since I don't have a reason to accidentally need to touch them.
No, not the whole time. There’s not a whole lot left to regenerate, so I only spend an hour or so in there. It’s mainly to try and salvage tissue and nerves. If Helen is there, then we talk. Otherwise I just watch the news or something. Afterwards, whatever progress thats made is evaluated before the physical therapy starts for a few hours. Between the drive to and from the city, it just feels like a whole day.
[ It’s certainly not that he spends all day there, it just feels like it. And, the more he talks about it, the more he just wants to protect Steve from it. Like it’s an ordeal that he definitely doesn’t need to bother himself with, it’s bad enough that he’ll deal with him being sore and achy afterwards. ]
Then it’s settled, you have nothing to worry about. If you do break something we’ll just get a new one.
Sounds like you could use some good company the whole time. [ That's Steve's takeaway after all that. There's downtime during the cradle and downtown traveling to the city and back where Tony's all alone.
Steve smiles though. He doesn't ask Tony to let him come along tomorrow. Part of him thinks that out of all the ways of slowing down, this might be the easiest place to start. They only just started dating yesterday, after all. Even if Steve's about to move in with him within two days. ]
Okay. [ The way Steve says it sounds satisfied. Happy. ] You know, after the war, any war, physical therapy helped a lot of men recover. People talk about that a lot in group. [ Group, aka group therapy. ]
[ That’s...definitely not what Tony expected Steve to say. He half expected him to agree to just meet him back home on those days, so if he seems surprised it’s for that.
He smiles, though, as if he’s amazed. Because he very much is. ] You’re amazing, Steve Rogers.
[ He leans in to kiss him, slow and lingering for a moment. As if to silently thank him for making all this so much easier than he could have anticipated.
At what he says, he smiles softly. He didn’t know Steve went to those meetings, but he’s so damn proud of him for it. ] Yeah? You participate in groups a lot?
[ Steve's known Tony for a very long time now, and while there have been days in the past where he's wondered how things were with Pepper, he's kept them all mostly to himself. When they'd broken up after Ultron, he hadn't even known what more to say to Tony other than how he sorry he was to hear that.
But now, seeing that surprise on Tony's face and the beautiful, heart-pulling smile that comes after, Steve realizes that maybe, based on whatever experiences Tony's has had in the past, people didn't quite treat him right, or maybe, through no fault of anyone's, things just hadn't worked out long enough for Tony to see what a good relationship looks like. Or at least, the way Steve thinks good relationships should work.
That kiss makes it hard for Steve to think. But there's something he wants to tell Tony. ]
You. [ He says, looking into Tony's eyes like he's the most beautiful man in the world. ] Tony Stark. Deserve everything. [ Steve smiles then, for just a moment. ] You deserve all the love the world has to offer. I want you to know that. And that I think that.
[ As for groups though, it's something that Steve's excited to share with Tony. ] I started back when I lived in D.C. Though, I didn't go as often back then. Sam got me into it. He used to run one for veterans trying to adjust back to living at home. Now I help him out when I can. During those five years, I went almost every other day.
[ There’s something about the way Steve looks at him, and says those words, that disarm him. It makes him feel warm from the inside out, and Tony is speechless for a moment before he kisses him again, as if that’s the only way he can say how much he appreciates him. ]
I feel like I do have everything right now, right here, with you.
[ He kisses him again before listening to him talk about the group sessions, and Tony smiles. ]
[ The grin that spreads on Steve's face comes immediately when Tony says that. Good, he thinks softly, and there's something that settles a little inside Steve.
And yeah, the kisses are starting to get quite distracting. ]
I think so. There are moments where knowing that there are other people is enough. [ He lets out a small sigh. ] But there are a lot of moments where I sat in that chair and had no idea how to move forward.
[ Group therapy is a place where you're supposed to share, after all. So Steve's had some practice sharing his own thoughts. Usually, though, there wasn't another Avenger right next to him. And no, Sam doesn't count. But that's only because Sam's gone through the same thing. War back then ... was a different creature. A worse, bloodier, haunting creature. ]
Both? But for different reasons. The last five years... [ Steve shakes his head as he gives Tony's hand a squeeze, to comfort himself this time. ] ...felt impossible. Like I was trying to help everyone else move on. But I knew that I wasn't. And I was even more resistant to even trying. It's why I ended up moving out of the compound. Natasha wasn't moving on either. [ The thought of her, and what she meant to both of them, brings a sad smile to Steve's lips. ] And when she and I were together? Felt like we made each other regress.
[ He listens attentively, keeping his hold on his hand firm. As if to help give him a grounding sensation, in case he needs it. Tony’s not a soldier, never has been. Not in the way Steve is. But he knows a bit of dealing with a heavy past and memories, and he wants to support him the same way Steve has been supporting him.
Tony’s lips mirror the same sad smile, because he misses her. He wasn’t as close to her as Steve was, but he does miss her a lot. Some days he still struggles with the survivor guilt that he was able to make it when she couldn’t. ]
I’m sorry I wasn’t there. I don’t know how much I would have been able to help [ he adds, apologetic because its the truth ] but I wish I could have done more for both of you.
[ It's more than feeling grounded. Feeling Tony's firm grip also keeps Steve from feeling alone, which is always the danger when he talks about this stuff. But it's hard to feel alone with the person you're falling in love with is holding your hand this tight.
Steve smiles gently when Tony says he wishes he could've done more, but after a moment, he just shakes his head a little. ] I'm not sure anything could've helped us much. But I love that you wanted to. [ He takes a deep breath. ] Ultimately, all we wanted was to for everyone to come back. [ At that thought though, Steve looks over at Tony's eyes and smiles again. ] You did do that for us. For everyone. She would've been proud of you.
[ A small smile crosses his lips when Steve says that he loves that he wanted to help. It’s definitely not a lie, and it’s not even just because they’re together. Tony exiled himself because he knew he couldn’t help anyone, no matter how much he wanted to. He wasn’t in the best terms with the team, but it didn’t mean he wouldn’t have tried to help if there had been a way. He just didn’t have answers of any kind.
When Steve brings up what he did, though, Tony’s smile grows a bit more but it’s more modest than anything else. This isn’t the first time someone has brought up what he did, but to Tony he didn’t do anything overly extraordinary. Whatever it takes, right? He had just taken it very seriously. ]
I hope she is. I couldn’t let her sacrifice go to waste. [ He stays quiet for a moment before his smile turns more sad than anything else. ] I didn’t know Bruce tried to bring her back, but I did, too. I guess we could only get one wish out of the snap, though.
[ Whatever it takes. Steve knows that almost all of them would've done the same thing. Even Natasha herself, if she had still been alive. But in the end, Tony was the one who did, knowing what he was trading. It had practically been a miracle that Shuri and Helen were able to save him.
Steve nods. ] I...
A lot happened when I took the stones back. But with the soul stone ... [ Steve clears his throat. He's never really told anyone that he got to see her body, and even with how comforting Tony is, Steve's still not sure he can get the sentence out without choking up first. So in the end, he decides to go with something simpler to say. ] I tried to get her back too. To trade something for her. The stone itself, maybe.
[ Tony watches him, silent. When he says he tried to to bring her back by trading something, he feels his heart break for him, especially since he knows how close he and Natasha had been, and he gently kisses his cheek. ]
I’m sorry. Maybe there’s something else we can figure out. We thought the first snap would never be undone, and now that has all changed. Maybe one day we can also bring her back.
[ He can only hope, anyway. He doesn’t know how many laws of time they’d be breaking if they did that, but for one of their own, Tony would do it. She deserves to be here, alive after everything she did. ]
[ Steve almost starts talking, but then stops himself. He just looks at Tony for a minute, eyebrows furrowed, eyes grateful, that sad smile still on his lips. ]
No, Tony. [ He says, shaking his head gently. ] Maybe one day. But I'm not trying to ask you for that.
[ He's certainly not going to give up hope for Natasha if Tony truly believes there's a way. But something about this feels much more final than anything that's come before it.
And when Steve leans in to kiss Tony again this time, the way he lingers seems to say I'm so grateful you're still here. ]
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I'm comfortable too. [ He likes the way Tony put that. It feels like it describes more than where just his body is. His heart feels comfortable too, here, with Tony, and Steve feels it too — how it's falling hard and fast right now. ] I love that we can talk about all this. And. I didn't say this earlier, but, I feel lucky to be with you too.
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...I really like having you here, you know. Maybe - if you want - you can...stop by again, even when we don’t go for hikes?
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Yeah? [ He chuckles, and because Steve is feeling a little brave: ] I think you're going to have a hard time keeping me away.
For as long as you want me here.
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I think you’ll come to find out I won’t be kicking you out anytime soon. If it was up to me, you’d stay for as long as you want to.
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Are you ... saying what I think you're saying? [ There's a curious smile on Steve's face as he asks. ]
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If it’s something you’re comfortable with, yes. I don’t want you to feel like you have to, but if you’d like to stay here... you’re welcome to. And I obviously have extra rooms if you ever want your own space.
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But— Yeah. I'll need to go back to my apartment at least once to get some things. After that ... [ Steve grins, almost like he isn't sure what he's saying could actually be real. ] I'm all yours.
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You can pick whichever one you want. And this doesn’t have to happen now, it can be whenever. There... Some days, especially after therapy I may be a bit much, so you’re welcome to get some space away, I won’t get offended. [ If anything, that makes him feel guilty that he’ll be subjecting Steve to all that.
He gives his cheek a kiss. ] But I promise, generally I’m not that bad of a housemate.
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That sounds good. Maybe I'll pick one out when I get back. Say, on Tuesday. [ That comment about therapy though— ] A bit much huh? I'd actually like to come to therapy with you sometime if you're okay with it. Not tomorrow, but, maybe a couple of weeks from now.
[ Steve grins at the kiss. ] I'm sure you'll be great. As for me — well, you remember from the Tower. I have it pretty under control, but sometimes when I'm in a totally new place and get ... distracted, I accidentally end up breaking something. [ When Steve first started living in the Tower, he's pretty sure he broke the microwave. Aaaand also maybe Natasha's door handle, which hadn't been identical to his. In retrospect, Tony may have taken this all into account on Steve's floor in particular. ]
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[ It probably shouldn’t surprise him, considering how supportive Steve has been about everything he has said so far, but for some reason it does. Other than Pepper, Tony has never really dealt with recuperation and doctor visits while dating someone, and his first instinct is to not have Steve deal with him because he already feels like it’s too much. Which, well, maybe he shouldn’t have invited him to stay with him considering the situation with his arm isn’t exactly resolving itself tomorrow. ]
Yeah, I mean. If you really want to. It’s an all day thing; I still have a couple of weeks to go before I’m done with the cradle thing Helen developed, and then it’s physical therapy so it might get boring.
[ He grins, his expression fond at the memories. ] Oh I remember. It’s okay, the only thing I’m fond of around here is you. And my bots. Beyond that, you can break whatever you want.
[ Especially while they’re having sex. As Steve will come to find out. ]
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What happens when you're doing regeneration with Helen? [ He figures, at least, that that's what's going on here. That's what the cradle is for, after all. ] Do you lay in the cradle the whole time? Because in that case, physical therapy is a lot much more interesting.
[ He chuckles when Tony gives him permission to break whatever he wants. ] Understood. Don't break any bots. That should be pretty easy since I don't have a reason to accidentally need to touch them.
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[ It’s certainly not that he spends all day there, it just feels like it. And, the more he talks about it, the more he just wants to protect Steve from it. Like it’s an ordeal that he definitely doesn’t need to bother himself with, it’s bad enough that he’ll deal with him being sore and achy afterwards. ]
Then it’s settled, you have nothing to worry about. If you do break something we’ll just get a new one.
meanwhile, this mun took a nap on a couch
Steve smiles though. He doesn't ask Tony to let him come along tomorrow. Part of him thinks that out of all the ways of slowing down, this might be the easiest place to start. They only just started dating yesterday, after all. Even if Steve's about to move in with him within two days. ]
Okay. [ The way Steve says it sounds satisfied. Happy. ] You know, after the war, any war, physical therapy helped a lot of men recover. People talk about that a lot in group. [ Group, aka group therapy. ]
mmm nap 😴
He smiles, though, as if he’s amazed. Because he very much is. ] You’re amazing, Steve Rogers.
[ He leans in to kiss him, slow and lingering for a moment. As if to silently thank him for making all this so much easier than he could have anticipated.
At what he says, he smiles softly. He didn’t know Steve went to those meetings, but he’s so damn proud of him for it. ] Yeah? You participate in groups a lot?
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But now, seeing that surprise on Tony's face and the beautiful, heart-pulling smile that comes after, Steve realizes that maybe, based on whatever experiences Tony's has had in the past, people didn't quite treat him right, or maybe, through no fault of anyone's, things just hadn't worked out long enough for Tony to see what a good relationship looks like. Or at least, the way Steve thinks good relationships should work.
That kiss makes it hard for Steve to think. But there's something he wants to tell Tony. ]
You. [ He says, looking into Tony's eyes like he's the most beautiful man in the world. ] Tony Stark. Deserve everything. [ Steve smiles then, for just a moment. ] You deserve all the love the world has to offer. I want you to know that. And that I think that.
[ As for groups though, it's something that Steve's excited to share with Tony. ] I started back when I lived in D.C. Though, I didn't go as often back then. Sam got me into it. He used to run one for veterans trying to adjust back to living at home. Now I help him out when I can. During those five years, I went almost every other day.
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I feel like I do have everything right now, right here, with you.
[ He kisses him again before listening to him talk about the group sessions, and Tony smiles. ]
That’s great. Did it help?
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And yeah, the kisses are starting to get quite distracting. ]
I think so. There are moments where knowing that there are other people is enough. [ He lets out a small sigh. ] But there are a lot of moments where I sat in that chair and had no idea how to move forward.
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Tony gives Steve’s hand a gentle squeeze as he speaks, in appreciation for Steve sharing this with him. ]
In general, or in the last five years?
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Both? But for different reasons. The last five years... [ Steve shakes his head as he gives Tony's hand a squeeze, to comfort himself this time. ] ...felt impossible. Like I was trying to help everyone else move on. But I knew that I wasn't. And I was even more resistant to even trying. It's why I ended up moving out of the compound. Natasha wasn't moving on either. [ The thought of her, and what she meant to both of them, brings a sad smile to Steve's lips. ] And when she and I were together? Felt like we made each other regress.
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Tony’s lips mirror the same sad smile, because he misses her. He wasn’t as close to her as Steve was, but he does miss her a lot. Some days he still struggles with the survivor guilt that he was able to make it when she couldn’t. ]
I’m sorry I wasn’t there. I don’t know how much I would have been able to help [ he adds, apologetic because its the truth ] but I wish I could have done more for both of you.
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Steve smiles gently when Tony says he wishes he could've done more, but after a moment, he just shakes his head a little. ] I'm not sure anything could've helped us much. But I love that you wanted to. [ He takes a deep breath. ] Ultimately, all we wanted was to for everyone to come back. [ At that thought though, Steve looks over at Tony's eyes and smiles again. ] You did do that for us. For everyone. She would've been proud of you.
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When Steve brings up what he did, though, Tony’s smile grows a bit more but it’s more modest than anything else. This isn’t the first time someone has brought up what he did, but to Tony he didn’t do anything overly extraordinary. Whatever it takes, right? He had just taken it very seriously. ]
I hope she is. I couldn’t let her sacrifice go to waste. [ He stays quiet for a moment before his smile turns more sad than anything else. ] I didn’t know Bruce tried to bring her back, but I did, too. I guess we could only get one wish out of the snap, though.
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Steve nods. ] I...
A lot happened when I took the stones back. But with the soul stone ... [ Steve clears his throat. He's never really told anyone that he got to see her body, and even with how comforting Tony is, Steve's still not sure he can get the sentence out without choking up first. So in the end, he decides to go with something simpler to say. ] I tried to get her back too. To trade something for her. The stone itself, maybe.
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I’m sorry. Maybe there’s something else we can figure out. We thought the first snap would never be undone, and now that has all changed. Maybe one day we can also bring her back.
[ He can only hope, anyway. He doesn’t know how many laws of time they’d be breaking if they did that, but for one of their own, Tony would do it. She deserves to be here, alive after everything she did. ]
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No, Tony. [ He says, shaking his head gently. ] Maybe one day. But I'm not trying to ask you for that.
[ He's certainly not going to give up hope for Natasha if Tony truly believes there's a way. But something about this feels much more final than anything that's come before it.
And when Steve leans in to kiss Tony again this time, the way he lingers seems to say I'm so grateful you're still here. ]
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omg I'm so sorry my previous tag had so many typos
you’re fine! sorry about mine too though, that’s what i get for posting too early the in morning
SAME
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wow I also didn't mean to say "his feels" b/c Steve is not a millenial
it’s what being around each other does to them, they are going crazy ;)
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feel free to go vague and let time pass, I'm starting to set that up
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they're so soft and cute
yesss they’re adorable ❤️
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